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Together

Together,
Within a smudge of blue,
I walk the footpath.

Together no longer,
We become smatters of blue
That once made a beautiful smudge.

Good Times/Bad Times

Many broken pieces
Shattered, now apart
What can I do to mend it?
To mend by broken heart?

Friends No Longer

But you would not listen to me,
So friends no longer shall we be.

Friendships Lost
(Scars That Can Never Heal)

I see your smile
I know your mind
No words need be said
I understand.
Focused on each other
We listen and we care
Laughter ripples like water
Together, we are.
Others are here, yes,
And we value them, yes,
But a special bond remains,
A line between us two.
Each friendship is special
Each is unique
And so is ours
We know.
And then time begins to roll
and rear it’s ugly head
Change begins
Now a little less than before.
Slowly, surely,
Not knowing why
Faster, stronger, without care
Our world shifts and shimmers and splits.
Shattered shards cascade down
Spurred by angry, lashing words
Contorted faces, stone deaf ears
Outside the whirlwind,
We die inside.
The scars run deep
Jagged clefts in our souls
We have succeeded in hurting
And hurt ourselves.
So you move on
And I remain
We keep on living
Turn our faces apart.
Now I glance across
At you from outside
Shaded eyes dry with tears
New friends, new life.
Laughter, smiling (clenched teeth)
The flippant toss of the head
The enclosure surrounds you
I cannot come near.
From behind my glass window
I know more than those within
I see the hurt in your eyes
I know the pain in your smile
I have been there before - I love you
Why do you pretend?
I hate to see your pain
And I cry inside
Tears deep within my soul
I cannot help you anymore.
What we had once
We can never have again.
The scars run deep,
But I still care.
You were my friend.

Walking As Angels

We laid back and let it all flow out
the topic of trust never once had a doubt,
for within my mind and heart as well
was an image and vibe as clear as a bell.
You were very special to me and more
I had a feeling inside I never felt before.
A trust so great and strong
I wanted this trust to take away all the wrong
and return to me a mended soul.
My mended soul would then release a new angel beside the other one
and together we would stroll the heavens,
our times are over and done.
For we have then won the battle within
and now we rest for created we have a personality twin,
Think alike, talk alike, say the same thing.

But do not worry my pen is okay
For within my heart our memories will always stay,
Forever…

because a part of you will be with me always, to forget you
Never…

We Once Were One

The day that we first met,
in my mind I still see,
you sitting in the lunch room,
looking for some company.
I alone myself, sat down with you that day,
neither of us knowing what the hell to say.
But we got through the awkward times,
and quickly came to be,
the best of friends to each other,
we could ever be.
The closer we grew,
the more we left, the other world behind,
just me and you we jumped into a new place totally blind.
We prayed together our friendship forever,
and always would stay the same,
but time has passed,
only memories last,
and little friendship remains.
WE ONCE WERE ONE!
I screamed at you, I want my best friend back!
But we both realized at once it was that bond we lacked.
You think it doesn’t hurt me,
to see us back to two,
looking to my left and right to see there is no you.
But we both are moving on now, let us do it gracefully,
I hope our friendship still lives on in you memory.

The Perfect Friend

I thought I had found the perfect friend,
But it only took about a week for that to end,
I thought there was hope left in my life,
But as it turns out, it was only added strife,
I thought for once I had done something right,
But I quickly corrected that oversight,
I thought I wasn’t useless or a bore,
But I was all that and even more,
I thought there was a purpose to my days,
But that was only a very short phase,
I thought you weren’t like all the rest,
But like those before, you failed the test,
I thought you would stay with me, at least for a bit,
But you decided it was better just to quit,
I thought life was worth living for a moment in time,
But the life I wanted could never be mine,
I thought the hunger inside had been fed,
But now I know, I was just being misled.
And now I think I’ve found another perfect friend,
How long before my heart is broken again?

A Lost Friendship

You were my friend then: now almost stranger!
Our friendship appeared once very glorious;
What happened meantime, gives me great anger;
Our friendship no longer remains serious.

Dear friend however, you can’t be my foe;
I hope that our friendship, blossoms once more!

For Heather

Just by the thought of you
I find myself all sad again.
I’ve lost you, but also gained.
I know I must be grateful,
but my soul is sad for you.

But then again, although I’m sad -
I know I’m glad -
cause I know I’ve saved you.
I’ll rest my heart in that . . .

Betrayal

An echo fades into the night,
an eerie mournful sound.
A shooting star disappears from sight,
and I crumble to the ground.
There is no life within this garden;
my sobs are the only sound.
I have poisoned the honeyed fountain
where your love could be found.

An echo fades into the night
as our friendship disappears.
How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do call you again,
would the old wounds reappear?
I can’t stand to cause you pain.
Hurting you again is my worst fear!